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Sorry for the non-existence for a while, I've totally been spacing. So, some of you might be happy to hear that my life is turning around (kinda). I'm getting *knocks on wood* a car tomorrow (a sweet fully-loaded '98 Honda Accord!), and I'm starting GED classes in two weeks. As far as the job thing, I'm literally guaranteed a spot at CVS with my friend Kristyn in mid-june, which is perfect because that's when classes end.. I can work full-time and save up for practically everything I need. I'm not sure about future plans right now, as far as an apartment and college. I know for fact that college is totally a perogative, I've got to have that for my ultimate goal: owning my own restaurant. I dunno, mom's offering free rent to live here if I wanna go to college around here, which isn't a bad idea. Unlike most people when it comes to their parents, I absolutely adore my mother, and would be completely gone without her.

As far as my personal life, well, family's doing.. okay. Not great by any means, but it's beggining to get bearable. I'm not planning on making it a habit to keep attached to the idea of a real family, but my sister, sister-in-law, and mother are forever with me. Now, onto that lovely little thing called a love life.. yeah, nothing great and shiny there. Basically, the guy I've been interested in might as well be a brick wall, because it's certainly like talking to one.. besides, that brick wall is already fraternizing with some shiny new adobe, so an old crumbly terrace like me stands no chance. I'm trying my best to move on, and I'm doing kinda okay.

I can tell you this much, I've certainly come a long way when it comes to self-confidence and courage. Life's too short to be shy and bashful all the friggin' time. I've actually had the balls to be proud of myself a few times.. a milestone, really. So, yeah.. I feel pretty good for now.