Four In The Morning

I'm sure that most of us have been in that little whirlpool regarding our lives. Yes, the one where we're sucked into not knowing which path to take and what to do about this, that, and the other. Well, once again, I'm there, and frankly, I'm getting kinda dizzy.

I've grown pretty tired of the community college scene. Nothing against it, but damn, I hate it. I hate waiting to break loose and go for the things I'd love to do. Pretty sure I need a change of pace. I sit in some classes and wonder, "Why am I here, I hate it here. I could be off somewhere else doing something I love, but instead, I'm giving myself a headache because I don't know how to do fractions." So, I've made a choice. I'm transferring credits (but keeping a transcript, in case I should go back.. always have a backup, kids.) and I'm going to culinary arts school. There are alot of things I have a passion for (cooking, acting, music, good hair), and I'm not catering to any of those needs (yes, I see the potential for a foods-related pun there.) where I am. So, I'm taking charge of what I want and I'm going for it.

This sudden change in my course of life probably means I'm gonna have to move out sooner than I thought, so I'm gonna need a roommate sooner than I thought. I hate the idea of living alone. I can't even stand being alone for long periods of time. Hell, I couldn't hack the drive back to Kansas City from Oklahoma City without stopping somewhere and chatting with a stranger about the weather (toothless old guys in Joplin actually have a pretty good sense of humor.) I'm moving downtown off of 11th and Grand, so that'll be an adventure. I can't wait for it, but the furniture part's gonna suck. Anyone that would love to get rid of some couches and things, totally lemme know. Meanwhile.. garage sales, folks. I frickin' love garage sales. Ever since I was a little kid, I mean, I grew up in thrift stores and on garage sale driveways. It's so easy, really. The only thing I'll buy new is a mattress. Ain't want nobody's dead babies on my sheets (things that make you go.. ecghh.) SO. I have alot to consider, and alot to take in. Thoughts?