Days Go By

So it's been a bit since I've posted anything, and I apologize for that. Life's been blecgh, to say the least. I feel as if I'm a bit stuck, really, and there aren't many places to go. I've finally got a car, that is a major relief, trust me. I'm in my GED classes, and according to my pre-test scores (you take the actual GED test twice, first before classes to determine placement in lessons, and lastly to actually obtain your GED), I passed this thing with flying colors. My best subjects were Language Arts/Reading/Writing (duh), and Social Studies, followed by Science and Math. So yeah, I'm basically screwing around in class now until the time comes for me to take the test again.. don't get me wrong, I'm still taking lessons on things I need to improve, but I'm just not that into it like a few others are, so that's been my highlight these past few days.

As far as life outside of academics goes, it's not entirely pleasant. I'm still sleeping on the couch at my mom's place, waiting for that glorious eighteenth birthday to come around (getting down to two months, baby!!) so I can get the hell outta there.. don't get me wrong, it's not my mom, it's the other residents, namely my brother. The thing that really frustrates me the most is that when it's good, and there's no tension, I don't mind it at all, I actually almost find it.. enjoyable. When it's bad, I can't help but jump to thoughts of escape, running again like I always do, except I have nowhere to run to this time, so it's gonna have to come down to a decision. I just hope the good comes through so it doesn't have to come to that.

Okay, onto something a little less intense: the love life. Well, it's still the same, nothing new and shiny to see here. Just a barren wasteland of regrets, alcohol, missed opportunities, and cigarettes. It's not easy, but I'm living it. Still waiting for that person to come ambling out of the mist, if you will. So, I'm exceedingly tired, and I'm finding it hard to keep my eyes open.. I need food. Food's good. Lunch in half an hour.